The big news!

Salam,

I know I have been keeping this big news from everyone for a while. Although I have been giving obvious hints through the 'Little Us' widget at my right sidebar, but I just feel so bad for not announcing it officially. You have to know it is not easy to keep this thing shut. (physically I can't though because I have started to eat like a monster and looks like a monster too!) It is like, you are graduating (yeay! among the biggest event in life, right?) but you keep it as a secret from everyone. Difficult isn't it? I mean, it is among the biggest, most awaited things all this while and now it is happening but I can't shout it to everyone. Yes, I am pregnant. Alhamdulillah!

Muhammad was advising me not to blurt it out until I passed my 'safety zone', the first trimester. Since our doctor was putting my pregnancy at high risk, I was indeed in a worried state every little seconds. So earlier, I just let my family and close friends know about this. Alhamdulillah we are now passing 13 weeks pregnancy, which means the risk of miscarriage has much reduced. Although the possibility is still there. Please make du'a for us.

Since I have nothing to do (plus I am only left with pregnancy brain now) so I decided to scan all the scanned photos of our baby week by week and upload it on this blog. I am so kind to labeled the scan photos as how the doctor described it to me during our visits so at least the black and white thing make some sense for us. So let us see how our little bean has grown up since the first time we saw him/her!

Our first U/S scan to confirm my pregnancy. During this time, the baby might just consist of a ball of cells (called blastocyst) which has just implanted. Notice the worrying 5-7 cm ovarian cyst on the right ovary and the fluid around my uterus. That is the reason why they are putting my pregnancy at high risk. We are worried that the cyst might grow bigger and the fluid will increased and drain my respiratory organ.

My second U/S scan when I had slight brown bleeding during work. Only shown gestational sac which measures 5 weeks and still the big ovarian cyst was obvious on the right. The doctor said we only had 50-50 chance at that time since the bleeding shown a threatened miscarriage. Had another scan at 6 weeks but the doctor did not gave us the scan photo to keep. That scan should show a rice-grain sized embryo.

Our fourth U/S scan on the eight week of pregnancy has almost clearly shown the embryo itself and the yolk sac other than gestational sac. Now the doctor can just measure CRL to determine the gestational age instead of measuring the gestational sac. Fetal heartbeat was seen for the first time and the cyst has shrunk to just 2.7 cm! Alhamdulillah!

Our latest scan on 10th week. I read that by the end of this week, the baby has graduated from its embryonic period and can now be called fetus! Which means a big sigh of relief for me as somehow the baby has passed the high risk of physical birth defects and miscarriage risk has much reduced. And I should expect a rapid growth after this (plus more and more weight gain! oh no!). The baby measured 3.72 cm with estimated age at 10 weeks and 4 days.

A positive sign of fetal heart beat was also shown. I asked my doctor about the rate but the doctor said that they would not bother to measure the rate during this stage. It will usually matters in later months as we progress with the pregnancy. My doctor also showed me the developing umbilical cord and placenta which will takes up the role of the yolk sac later on. Another reason to breathe a sigh of relief! Alhamdulillah!

All in all, it was so far a healthy pregnancy. The doctor was happy and we are over the moon. She was happy enough to let me come once a month so I'll be seeing her during my 15th week. Not like typical first trimester, alhamdulillah for me it was indeed an easy first 3 months. I have no morning sickness at all...except for light headache which come and go. I am more optimistic. I hope we could always stay on the bright side and the sun will never stop shining.... Keep on praying.