I am in KL right now...
I went to see my potential supervisor for my master last Tuesday in UM. If you ask me how was it, I would say that the meeting resulted in me being discourage of doing master by research. The lady Prof was fine and very encouraging. She was the one who I contacted through email and phone when I decided to do my master in UM. But when I told her about my research interest, she thought that Dr. R should know it better. And so the meeting involved me, the lady Prof and Dr. R.
The thing that discourage me was:
First, Dr. R was keep saying, "I don't think that this project going to be enough with just one master". What's that supposed to mean eh? (I honestly blurred on that remark) And he kept saying it a few times on a regular interval.
Second, He never reply my mail! The lady Prof was very kind that she replied all my mails at right instant and whenever I called her she was always around. And so I know if I would have her as my supervisor, she would always be there when I need her, you see? But with Dr.R, after the meeting, he promised that he would send me the reference for me to read. It has been 2 days now, but nothing! (okay... maybe I should be patient and wait la bit longer, but if the mail does not comes in for the next few weeks, then I'm giving up)
Third, I barely could understand his accent. I know he is from US but does the accent should not be too much different from British accent?
Lastly, he definitely don't want a part timer and wanted it to be done full time which I can't at the moment.
And so I have enough reason why I'm not proceeding with doing master by research with him. I once read an article about deciding of whether to choose taught or research based master. The article said, if you decide to do master by research, other than choosing something that is within your interest (because you are going to spend your precious 2 years of your life on it), you must also make sure that you have a GOOD SUPERVISOR! Someone that could make your soon-to- be-difficult years a little bit easier. Someone that could encourage you and always positive.
I think I have finally decided to do my master part time on taught course which means weekend's hardwork! yeah! And Muhammad will be joining the boat insyaAllah.
I remembered my conversation with the nice lady Prof when Dr. R was out of the room for a while. She asked me of why I decided to do masters and do I really interested in joining academic. Then I told her of my sad story with my sponsor. The ridiculous policy of not allowing husband and wife to work in the same company. I jokingly said, I hate the company so much for dumping me and I can't even look the company's logo at every oil pumps ever since! But hey... I can't because someone that I love is working with that company. Ironic, isn't it? And it gave her a good laugh... she was saying that, for the first time she met a person that felt the same. She was in the geology department and of course working with petroleum geology research needed her to plead for data from the company. But it usually takes yeaaaaaaaaaarss for her to get it and thus delayed all the research. And she hate it so much but just like me, she can't, because her husband is with the company!
Talking about the company, I am now staying next to the company's proud skyscraper. It hurts me a little each time I'm looking at those twin towers. It reminds me of my jokes with my friend before,
"Hey, where are you from?"
"Malaysia!"
"Malaysia? Which one...?"
"The one with the twin towers (yes I was so proud of it once)"
"Ooo yes... that one! That tower is amazing...have you been there?"
"Yes, they are my sponsor and I'll soon going to work in there (naively)"
"Are you serious????"
"Yes, I'm going to book my office on the bridge of those towers. Haha!"
It has been five years since then.
And I'm not working in the towers.
And never step on the bridge either.
They've dumped me.
But looking back, this is what I have wished before. I remembered how much I wanted to be a full time housewife and freed myself from the bond of contract of the company. And how I thought that would be so impossible. But Allah has granted me my wish with the easiest way that I could never thought of. Who knows why they made such policy and put it in practice right after my graduation, making me among the very first 'victim'. Who knows that they just let me go and never get me back to pay my study loans. I'm finally free to decide on anything that I like to do for my life!
"...tetapi boleh jadi kamu tidak menyenangi sesuatu, padahal itu baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal itu tidak baik bagimu. Allah mengetahui sedang kamu tidak mengetahui..." (Al-Baqarah: 216)
I can be a full time housewife if I want to and Muhammad is certainly happy with it. But it can be bored sometimes at home when he is away and so I worked. Although the pay is not as much as what my friends are getting at those towers, but I'm grateful. I'm grateful with whatever Allah has given me now. Maybe one day, I would just decide to quit work and baby-sit my baby all day. It would be nice isn't it?
Alhamdulillah....thank you Allah! *smile*
note: I was dreaming playing with a cute 6 month old baby boy last night..hehe! I dont know why but I just know that he's ours! Owh well..it is just a dream anyway....
I went to see my potential supervisor for my master last Tuesday in UM. If you ask me how was it, I would say that the meeting resulted in me being discourage of doing master by research. The lady Prof was fine and very encouraging. She was the one who I contacted through email and phone when I decided to do my master in UM. But when I told her about my research interest, she thought that Dr. R should know it better. And so the meeting involved me, the lady Prof and Dr. R.
The thing that discourage me was:
First, Dr. R was keep saying, "I don't think that this project going to be enough with just one master". What's that supposed to mean eh? (I honestly blurred on that remark) And he kept saying it a few times on a regular interval.
Second, He never reply my mail! The lady Prof was very kind that she replied all my mails at right instant and whenever I called her she was always around. And so I know if I would have her as my supervisor, she would always be there when I need her, you see? But with Dr.R, after the meeting, he promised that he would send me the reference for me to read. It has been 2 days now, but nothing! (okay... maybe I should be patient and wait la bit longer, but if the mail does not comes in for the next few weeks, then I'm giving up)
Third, I barely could understand his accent. I know he is from US but does the accent should not be too much different from British accent?
Lastly, he definitely don't want a part timer and wanted it to be done full time which I can't at the moment.
And so I have enough reason why I'm not proceeding with doing master by research with him. I once read an article about deciding of whether to choose taught or research based master. The article said, if you decide to do master by research, other than choosing something that is within your interest (because you are going to spend your precious 2 years of your life on it), you must also make sure that you have a GOOD SUPERVISOR! Someone that could make your soon-to- be-difficult years a little bit easier. Someone that could encourage you and always positive.
I think I have finally decided to do my master part time on taught course which means weekend's hardwork! yeah! And Muhammad will be joining the boat insyaAllah.
I remembered my conversation with the nice lady Prof when Dr. R was out of the room for a while. She asked me of why I decided to do masters and do I really interested in joining academic. Then I told her of my sad story with my sponsor. The ridiculous policy of not allowing husband and wife to work in the same company. I jokingly said, I hate the company so much for dumping me and I can't even look the company's logo at every oil pumps ever since! But hey... I can't because someone that I love is working with that company. Ironic, isn't it? And it gave her a good laugh... she was saying that, for the first time she met a person that felt the same. She was in the geology department and of course working with petroleum geology research needed her to plead for data from the company. But it usually takes yeaaaaaaaaaarss for her to get it and thus delayed all the research. And she hate it so much but just like me, she can't, because her husband is with the company!
Talking about the company, I am now staying next to the company's proud skyscraper. It hurts me a little each time I'm looking at those twin towers. It reminds me of my jokes with my friend before,
"Hey, where are you from?"
"Malaysia!"
"Malaysia? Which one...?"
"The one with the twin towers (yes I was so proud of it once)"
"Ooo yes... that one! That tower is amazing...have you been there?"
"Yes, they are my sponsor and I'll soon going to work in there (naively)"
"Are you serious????"
"Yes, I'm going to book my office on the bridge of those towers. Haha!"
It has been five years since then.
And I'm not working in the towers.
And never step on the bridge either.
They've dumped me.
But looking back, this is what I have wished before. I remembered how much I wanted to be a full time housewife and freed myself from the bond of contract of the company. And how I thought that would be so impossible. But Allah has granted me my wish with the easiest way that I could never thought of. Who knows why they made such policy and put it in practice right after my graduation, making me among the very first 'victim'. Who knows that they just let me go and never get me back to pay my study loans. I'm finally free to decide on anything that I like to do for my life!
"...tetapi boleh jadi kamu tidak menyenangi sesuatu, padahal itu baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal itu tidak baik bagimu. Allah mengetahui sedang kamu tidak mengetahui..." (Al-Baqarah: 216)
I can be a full time housewife if I want to and Muhammad is certainly happy with it. But it can be bored sometimes at home when he is away and so I worked. Although the pay is not as much as what my friends are getting at those towers, but I'm grateful. I'm grateful with whatever Allah has given me now. Maybe one day, I would just decide to quit work and baby-sit my baby all day. It would be nice isn't it?
Alhamdulillah....thank you Allah! *smile*
note: I was dreaming playing with a cute 6 month old baby boy last night..hehe! I dont know why but I just know that he's ours! Owh well..it is just a dream anyway....
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Salam wbt
May Allah ease it for u ukhti..Nice Random Rambling anyway..heheh..
p/s : Thinking on pursue Masters degree too
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