The conclusion is, alhamdulillah I have passed the exam and now proceed for physical test. I don't know why I still don't feel anything. Blank and numb. Maybe it is just not something that I would like to do. Then called Muhammad to inform him about the news. And his voice was also expressionless.
"Shall I go?"
"Tak tahulah. Whereabout?"
"Kemaman"
"Owh..dekat je. We decide laterlah"
The question is... Should I go? Then I remembered a news that I heard last month. I asked Mr.Google and browse through Utusan Archive. This is what I found:
Pegawai PTD koma selepas ikuti kursus ala komando meninggal
31/05/2010 11:18am
KLANG 31 Mei - Pegawai Tadbir Diplomatik (PTD) yang tidak sedarkan diri selepas mengikuti kursus ala komando di Jugra, Kuala Langat dekat sini meninggal dunia pagi ini.
Norhashimah Wahid, 31, meninggal dunia di Unit Rawatan Rapi (ICU) Hospital Tengku Ampuan Rahimah (HTAR) di sini pukul 6.20 pagi tadi.
Mayat Allahyarham akan dibawa je rumah ibunya di Jalan Enggang Timur, Taman Keramat, Kuala Lumpur selepas dibedah siasat. - Utusan
That's the long story cut short. For detailed story click on the link below:
Pegawai PTD meninggal ikuti kurus ala komando
Norhashimah meninggal selepas koma ikuti kursus ala komando
I have heard so many versions of the story. Some said that she was forced to drink muddy sock's juice to the extent that it have caused her to have that lung infection and other stories, which all in all scared me, ok? Al-Fatihah for her soul and my deep sympathy for her family especially her hubby and daughter.
I am always against physical-army training or whatsoever that I find irrelevant. My sponsor once sent me to Outbound School of Lumut for a week to undergo of somewhat endurance program. The program was in replace of Program Anak Angkat that our seniors went on the previous years. It says to promore endurance and 'jati diri' for us scholars so that we appreciate what Allah have given us now by going through those difficult moment during the program. Owh well.. for me, having to spend nights at villagers house and getting to know how they live is much more rewarding. For me, it is a lifetime experience and at least you get the similar benefit of being grateful with whatever you have now compared to other people who don't have it. And also get a chance to contribute and do something for others, well in this case, the villagers. Plus, you get it without the bruises, pains and sunburn! Arrrgh!
I don't mind having to go through all those physical activities and I did it when I went to that OBS. But what's really irritates me was when they neglect all Islamic principles. Having to do all those activities does not mean that you can't observe your duty as a Muslim right? The participants are never reminded of solah and what's more jema'ah prayer. And don't mentioned about ikhtilat... imagine playing human knot in a group of men and women. In the end, I didn't get the certificate for that program and in returns I got a warning letter from my sponsor since I left early without attending the Closing Ceremony. ONLY the closing ceremony because I have to attend family matters and I did each and every course of activities successfully.
I don't mind doing the physical activities but need to have valid reason of why I should do it! When I was in college, every week I did canoieng (in cold winter!), swimming, archery, mud course, wall climbing etc but in the end I know that the skill will be useful during my second year when I instruct school chilren on those skills. How rewarding it is having to see the kids smile and safely undergo those activities or when their mum thanked me when their children know how to swim by the end of summer.
But now, could anyone tell me;
What is the relevance of commando-like physical training for government officer who would only involve in making policices and management????
Okay, back to the actual reason why I'm writing this. I just wanted to ask you readers:
"Should I go?"
3 kopi panas..:
oh.. since my husband is a PTD as well.. tak yah la yana.. keja ptd adalah dasyat.. extended working hours, ridiculous amounts of meeting at ridiculous days of the week e.g sunday night?!!? mountaneous kursus kursus kursus..
as much as ppl fancy the word PTD, as a wife I AM suffering, truth be told.
kalau tak wajib keja dgn government, tidak smpi tahap if u dun go kena bayar pampasan puluhan ribu ke apa.. tak perlu pergi lah.. not many PTD perempuan yg kawin mind u becoz they said if they do, they wont have time for family..
in the long run, yes.. PTD sangat laju naik pangkat dan gaji besar.. but i always told him, i dun need the money as I am working too and i dun ever dream nak dok dalam rumah sebesar istana because sometimes i just need him to be there..
dan moto hidup PTD is, "home is office, car, airport and meeting room." dan zauj biasa je cerita to prepare my mind that some of his PTD-mate yg dh lama2, ada je yg isteri bersalin dia dok meeting then balik rumah terlupa yg anak dah tambah satu.. siap tanya ni baby siapa..
oh well.. i am trying to be as sabar as i can be when he started to get rows and rows of meeting and kursus-es.. mujur parents 10 minit away je alhamdulillah..
and at times, he sometimes terfikir kena tukar kerja sbb his PTD stuffs started to take its toll on his tarbiyyah life and family life.. tp sbb kontrak kan?
if not because he loves his job so much, kaksu dh urge cari keja lain dah.. but because he really likes what he does, im trying my best to give my full support walau diselang seli dgn whining hehe..
mungkin agak bias kan, tp ini pengalaman sendiri hidup bersama seorang PTD...
Haha... tak bias la akak. What's more transparent and honest if it is not from the person who actually have been through it and enjoy (or suffer?) from it.
Tulah... I was thinking the similar thing. It is not that I am desperate for the job.
Alhamdulillah for the time being Allah has reward me with an ideal job I would say. Eight to five, close with student, very-very friendly employer and superior, have my own room, my own pantry, no weekend job, 3 hours of actual working hours per day and the rest is yours.... what's more I could ask for.
The decision is already there but just wants to make sure... hehe! InsyaAllah despite the suffering may Allah reward u with Jannah for making home the best place that he could be in after a hectic day at work kan??
Thanks akak for sharing. I'll tell you the progress if any..hehe~
Khadeeja
Inayah showed me your article and asked my opinion. I'm a PTD and have been in the service for almost 5 years now. I usually come home late at night and rarely have weekends to myself. I believe that if you love what you do, you would withstand the challenges.
About the outdoor activities, most of the PTDs that I know cherish those moments very much. It was challenging and tested mental strength, not merely physical. At such difficult moments, you could see those who were very helpful and those who were selfish. You wouldn't want to loose or give up because you wouldn't want to disappoint your team (your friends)and yourself. About Islamic principles, I didn't have any problem performing prayer and etc. even during the army training... people could skip prayer even if they were at the office so it's really up to you and your effort.
If you're against working long hours, cannot stand working with politicians, etc., - PTD is not for you. It's a 'service' industry. You work for the rakyat and the governing political party.
Being a PTD is not easy, my dear. But what job can really be classified as easy? You have to know what your priorities are and what you really want in life.
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