Bowling Spree!!

Salaam..

We've had great fun last week...alhamdulillah. On Monday, I went for bowling friendly match between our company and a client. I was not actually on the list but it happened I was at the Manager's room when the coordinator came in, looking for people to replace those who can't make it. I am no good at this game and am always defeated each time I played with Muhammad. But I decided to just gave this one a go.

Alhamdulillah the game was good. I scored over than 100 in the first game (which I know is not amazingly high score but the highest so far for my record..haha!) . I made some throw for second game before I excused myself as I have to made my way to mum's house that night. I was never expected to get anything out from the game but I won a chic rice grains container! Yeay! (btw, I was actually aiming for the polished Samsung microwave oven!hoho!) Anyway the rice container would be useful as the one that we already have is not 'kebal' enough from 'kutu beras'!

Then it was Saturday when we had our company's Sport's Day. Only two games provided; Futsal and Bowling. So I choose to play bowling again. I though I've had enough practice from Monday's game! huhu! I was hoping to score more than what I scored on Monday but instead I only managed to score 93... poor game eh? I was paired with the nice Kak Fa'e whom also very good at bowling. She scored about similar points as mine. I was quiet disappointed for my achievement on that day so I left early as I want to accompany Muhammad studying at home. Owh... and I fell on the bowling alley right after I throw the bowling ball as I slipped on the slippery lane. And to add spice to it, the incident happened in front of my Manager and he can't avoid but to laugh at me. But the throw resulted in spare by the way so it paid...kui2!

When we were back at the office this week Kak Su was telling me that I actually won something! Haha! I thought she was joking or I might just win a consolation price for falling on the lane. Then I found out that the game is not counted by personal score but by pairs. So my score added with Kak Fa'e scores put us at the second place! Wooohooo! hehe Alhamdulillah! So today, I brought back home a brand new Adidas 'balik kampung' bag as a present. I was bluffing to Muhammad about how good I am to have to win the second place in the office. And it ticked him off so he called for a match tonight!

Okay readers... please pray that I'll beat Muhammad tonight at the bowling alley... and we really meant serious business here! huhu!


Update: Muhammad won the game last night. I lost very badly...hukhuk! I was like "Why? Why? Why the ball rolled down the drain each time tonight?????"

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Salaam..

Thank you for those who left me with kind words of comfort from the last entry. Alhamdulillah I'm coping and have started to prepare myself for any possibility. I know that only the best could happen and I leave everything to Allah. For the time being, I try what ever I can to perform my best at the company. Please make du'a for me.

I am sorry if I can not update very frequent here now, as I have 3 blogs to maintain (including this one) at the moment;

For this one, I wrote about general things. My outlook on life, my experience, sharing of opinions and knowledge, whatever I thought I could share freely and could bring benefits to others. You might have known it well as you read this.


For those who noticed, I have this banner at my side bar. This is another blog of which I shared my battle with PCOS, the treatments, endless doctor visits, how I felt about it , my hope and dreams to see the little one. But I made it as private though and only certain people that I felt could benefit from it is allowed to read. And it is woman only site! If any of you felt that you should read it, I will happily add you into our little family.

This one is my boutique blog. Updated whenever the new stock arrive. Owh by the way I have just updated it recently with the new collections that was just arrived from Syria! Feel free to browse through it and tell me what do you think. If you are interested in any of it, just leave me a message. And it have a journal linked to it, where I shared about my opinion on muslimah fashion and what's new in Islamic fashion industry.

So I might be here and there. If I don't updated here, I might be rambling something at my other blogs...huhu! Aite... that is all from now I guess.

Another Life's Chapter

My life is like a drama, or a novel plot. That was what my friend used to say. Too many suprises and unexpected things keep on happening. They said, they have no clue on how I'm coping.

Well, I thought that this particular chapter of my life is going to have a good successful ending. Working in a well known engineering consultancy firm as a project engineer seems like a very promising prospect. I am looking forward for it. But Allah has better plan for me of which I do not know. The journey has just started but it seems like it will end soon and I have to start again somewhere else.

It was my second day at this new place when I was told that I cannot continue working here. To practice engineering in Malaysia, you have to be registered with the Board of Engineers Malaysia (BEM). That was what stated in the contract. But I can't! Simply because I'm a UK graduate and that they did not recognized my Bachelor degree. So, who said studying overseas is that great? It doesn't mean anything now... To obtain that qualification, I have to continue my master or sitting for a special examination.

It is ironic. I got to enjoy my dream job for a day before I am sacked. And now I'm almost jobless. I left my previous job and it will be shameful to beg for the position back. I don't know what to do. For a while, I kept on thinking why is these all happening to me? And why me? I was angry but I don't know to whom. The firm? BEM? Petronas? Who? I ended up crying so hard.

After office, I drove to the nearest beach all by myself. I texted Muhammad saying I will be back later than usual. I sat on a rock with a mushaf in my hand. I looked at the wide blue oceans, listened to the calming sounds of waves. I let the breeze soothed me with their soft touch. I opened Quran hoping to get an answer. I read and read till I almost finish a chapter. I did not find any exact answer but I found the calmness back. It has washed away my pain.

I went back home. I was tired and I desperately need a deep sleep. I went straight to bed while Muhammad was helping me with some house chores. He woke me up when my usrati came to our door with tears in her eyes. She was in need of soothing words as she was facing her difficult time as well. I immediately tried to forget my sadness and put up a smile on my face. For I know I should spared a room for her in my heart.

And so we talk with tears in our eyes. Muhammad was so nice to serve us with hot tea and some biscuits. By the end of it we were laughing to our silliness, knowing that what we have gone through is nothing compared to others who suffered more severely. She ended up staying over for the night. And another usrati came in later to join us and she also stayed over.

Later that night, I laid down on bed trying to get a sleep. I wanted to forget everything that happened that day, but the bad thoughts kept on coming to my head. Muhammad was at my side wiping each and every tears that were rolling down my face. My mind wandered blankly. Dzikr keeps playing on my lips... Allahu...Allahu...Allahu... to encounter the bad thoughts. Muhammad was looking at me, I saw tears in his eyes. He felt the pain, I know.

The next day, on my way to work, I listened to Maher Zain's InsyaAllah. It somehow gave me some strength as I will see the manager at the office that day. I will leave everything to Allah. InsyaAllah he will show me the way...


update: I am given 3 months of probation period to show my values to the company. If I succeeded then they will consider on keeping me. If not... I will be a fulltime housewife... huhu! Make a lot of du'a for me please... I desperately need it.

Nostalgic Moccacino

I was walking along the aisle to find any 3-in- 1 hot drink as we are running out of it.

Guess what I found?

A G-Day Moccacino 3-in-1 yeay! And it was the only one left on the rack. I never thought I could find it again! So without hesitate, I grab it! (I usually takes long time to decide on what to buy..hoho!)


You might not know the brand well but for me it is very special. Why is it so special?? It reminds me of my time when I was in Jordan at Fateh! I remember to have it everyday for breakfast and tea time and I like it so much that I almost finished the whole pack of it! (Sorry girls!huhu!) And not forgetting the time when I have to spend the whole day of sharing sessions and by the end of the day, a sister bring me a cup of hot moccacino to refresh my tiredness. So, it is not a usual hot beverage for me, it reminds me of the sweetness of ukhuwah everytime when I sip it! It reminds me of these faces...

I miss you all sooo badly!!

Okay... have to admit other than missing these girls, I miss the sweets along the Syari' Jami'ah as well (yang ada keju warna putih pastu ada mcm kuih cakar ayam kat atas tu then curah air gula tu... apa eh nama dia? Sedap sangat2!!! Kalau boleh pos sile pos. Haha!) Okay I'm joking! Nanti ada hamba Allah yang baik hati pergi pos manisan tersebut ke sini pulak.

Muhammad has been warning me on requesting something on this blog since I never expect someone would actually takes some effort to get the thing for me and posted it. (tisk...tisk... terharu!) Remember when I wrote about my dream birthday present a month before my brithday? (read HERE) Last week I went to the post office to claim the present. That nice-kind-gorgeous soul is my beloved Kak Su.

Cool bukan? Siap ada rehal special untuk dia nih. Sayang nih!

What so special about it is, it has translation per word and insyaAllah would be easier for my quest to memorize surahs. (May Allah help...) Before this, I would take sometimes to translate kalimah after kalimah before trying to memorize the whole ayat as I found it easier if I know the meaning of words by words. InsyaAllah I will try my best to benefit from it if may Allah gave the reward to Kak Su too. Ameen...



ps: Okay Kak Su, I need to know your birthday. Muhammad 'mewajibkan' saya to repay your kindness.... (padahal saya memang berniat begitu, tak payah suruh pun saya buat..heh!)





-sipping the hot Moccacino-
Khadeeja

Work and things in between

Supposedly today, I will start my job at Ranhill Worley as a Project Engineer. But yesterday they called and asked me to start on Sunday instead, together with another new staff. Nice! So I can have today's off and settled other things that have long been left unattended (my home, my business etc...) This would be my fourth job since I graduated. A month as a teacher, 3 month of BEST course (can this be considered a job? I am paid though...), 3 month as an instructor/lecturer and here's my new job! I hope that I stay this time

The thought of working in a big company like Ranhill Worley send me shivers. I don't know what to expect. Many of my colleagues at my previous workplace said that I'm going to have a very busy life after this as compared to now. Some said I will have to get used to visiting site and be tough! It is a man job they said. I have asked the interviewer during my interview session about the job. He said that it is more on management and academics rather than technical. I think I prefer it that way. One of my usrati who is a Project Engineer herself told me that most of the time I'll be in the office except if I really want to see the site which is not that frequent. Okay... that looks good too. I don't know...we'll see...I'll write more about it later.

And so, we had a farewell lunch yesterday organized by my colleagues. They were all very nice to held such celebration, considering that I have only spent 3 months there. There are LOTS of food! (which was my favourite part) I bought a huge box of Big Apple Donut as a token of appreciation. Thank you... thank you... thank you everyone!

The Mochachino cake by Kak Leni. Can order here!

After the event, I went back to my office. Prepare last tutorial sheets for my student, fighting with the photostat machine after that, return the reference books to the library and tidied up my office. Working in TATiUC was a pleasant experience, I would say. I'm moving out not because of anything bad there but simply I just want to venture into other type of experience which is working in real oil and gas industry. If we are talking about the pay, I got higher pays in TATiUC compared to what Ranhill offers. It is just that I would like to put my 3 years of university study into practice. But I know one day I will be back to the academic field. I think...

Farewell, my office...hukhuk! I'm going to miss the moment here

Looking back, I'm glad that I actually leave something upon my leaving. I spend my 3 months there working to improve the laboratory management and documentation, while it has long been abandoned by the guys (I am the only female instructor working there). And it paid off by the audit visit from a regulatory body last week where they found out that everything in a satisfactory condition. We have all the required documentation and records, yeah! My mission when I first came in was, I wanted to make sure that the laboratory will gain ISO certification for Good Laboratory Management. But, I'm leaving and I hope that my other colleagues will continue my quest.

For me, when people pay you, they put trust in you and want you to give out the best that you can. What's more, it is the amanah and we will be questioned for it. I could choose to just sit around in my office and browsing the internet for the whole day when I was in TATiUC, as the student were not around so technically means, no work. But I simply thought that I don't want to feed myself with haraam money. And so I would be looking for work every time I am at my work place and spent my sweat on it. By the end of the day it gave me satisfaction and it was such a relief knowing that I'm paid for something!

But there were days when there were really nothing to do and so I spent the bored hours browsing internet (as that was the only mean of entertainment) I felt guilty though.... But thanx to my beloved usrati (back in Manchester) who forwarded me an article from Ust Zaharudin's site. The article discussed about the Islamic views of spending time browsing internet during leisure hours at work place. And it has somehow gave me a relief. You can read the article HERE. Ustaz has elaborated it in very detail.

As for my plan for furthering study, I think I put it into a halt first. I wanted to get use to my new workplace and my new daily routine before I'm thinking about adding other commitment. As for Muhammad, I am happy for him as he got the offer to further his postgraduate study in UTM. Alhamdulillah! So next week we'll be going to Skudai for his registration. He will be doing it part time and his classes will be on weekend. This means less free time! I think I should prepare myself to be mentally and emotionally strong to support him throughout this journey. I don't think that we could afford to do too many things at the same time; our tarbiyah dan dakwah, work, business and study. So I'm sparing my time to support Muhammad and I'll continue my study when he finishes insyaAllah.

May Allah guide and help us... ameen.